INSPIRED

This morning I woke up inspired.  Inspired to create.  Something I haven't felt in far too long.  These past three years I was more like a machine, than a designer.  Making things to please the masses instead of myself.  I was designing to survive in New York, turning my passion into simply a money maker.  I thought I would move to New York and be overcome with inspiration, but the opposite happened.  I didn't paint once the whole three years I lived in New York.  I was a hamster on a wheel, determined not let the city beat me.  I thought if I make something, anything, for anybody I can get by another day and show New York I can survive the cut throat streets.  I was fighting to make it happen the whole time I was there.  Now don't get me wrong I loved my time in New York City!  I met brilliant people, and experienced things I would otherwise never experience, and I would not change a minute of it for anything, but for the first time since I've left the city I am happy to be home. 

California is my home, and I am here.  I don't feel stifled here, quite the opposite I feel free.  Free to create whatever my little heart desires!  I don't know what the future holds for me but what I have come to realized just this morning is that I am where I belong, and I'm happy to be here.

Today is the day I start to create my life in California, for no other reason other than I want to.  I'm suppose to, the universe told me.  I'm making jewelry with my own two hands today, really making jewelry, like really really making it with my whole heart.  Something I haven't done in 3 years.  I can't wait to see what's next!